Friday, January 25, 2008

to those who we have loved....and lost...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zCdZwitrNoY

(you don't want to miss this...so click on it :)

I was "sneaking" around on some blogs and I found this adorable you tube video. And I cried!! I don't know where it came from or for what but it spoke volumes to my heart and soul. This sound video says it all...if Heavenly Father can give up his son...I can give up my Dad for a period of time....I know NOT why my father was taken at such an early time in all of our lives but there must be a reason and someday I will know why and full heartily understand.

It has been 12 years since my dad died from cancer. And it has been hard dealing with his death especially when I think about him, and I don't think a day goes by when I don't think about him. And when I think about him I always say...if only you were here! Every time I have a difficult day or moment my thoughts go to him, and for some reason I think that if he was here my life would seem less difficult...or there would be something he could say or do to help me get through this difficult moment. And I'm sure he could do something...cause MY DADDY could fix anything! But...he's not physically here with me...so I must somehow deal with these moments by myself and somehow get thru them in a good way...and I take those times when I think of him and imagine him next to me...cause I believe those are the moments when my Dad wants me to know hes spiritually right next to me and that this is his way of telling me....I LOVE YOU! And I always reply.....I LOVE YOU TOO!

5 comments:

Krista said...

What a sweet video. I've always wondered why your dad had to go so soon. Whenever I go to that gravesite for my grandpa, I always look over at your dads. He was a good man and I guess God needs those really special ones. My grandpa died when he was 42 from cancer and even though I never knew him, I feel really close to him and know he's always there. I swear he was right by my side when I got married in the temple. He was the first convert from our family so my mom always says that he is a missionary on that side and teaching our family just like Barb says Justin is. I wish you didn't have to lose your dad. He was a neat guy.

Krista said...

Oh, and by the way, I'm glad you commented so I could see your blog. I want to see some pics!!

Tabatha & Michael Stimpson said...

Krista!! I'm soo excited you commented!! Although you made me cry! That means alot to me on your comment about my dad. He was a great dad. I didn't know that about your gramps...and that both of them are at the same cememtary...very cool. I am still getting use to this blog thingy...I don't know how to add people and all that extra stuff. I just know the basics, and with what little time I have its hard to add things like pics...but hopefully this weekend I can get more done. (fingers crossed :) hehe Oh! and you can check out some pics on my myspace.com/tabathastimpson...I think! LOL :)

Krista said...

I had a hard time figuring it out at first but I just kept asking my friend how to do stuff and it's so easy. There are icons on top of the new post page and you just click on that and it brings up another page and you just add pics from your computer. Did that make sense? At least that is how to do it for a post. If you want to keep a pic on the side, you just click customize and there are different things you can add. Like pics and links etc. Hope that helps. Just e-mail me if you have any questions. I will try to see if I can go to your myspace. I tried with barbs and I had to have an account too so I will try.

Boomers Bunch said...

Hey Tabby, I think and do the same exact things you wrote down. Even though sometimes I think.. it has been 12 years since Dad has passed away, why hasn't it gotten any easier to deal with the fact that he is gone when the thought pops into my head, like he is whispering to me I will always be here and I love you sissinator! I have also noticed when I am having those days I wear the Duck Creek shirt of his.